Today has been kind of a bummer day. Bill Bailey (the kind fellow pictured here…he was truly one of my favorite people to work with :()/Luke Perry/Dr. Vink…*sigh*. You get it. Sadness City. 🙁
But-t I’m being the grownupiest I know how to be and charging on with “life” , despite really wishing I could make this one of those days where I wrap up in my comfy cocoon of =w=eed and Resident Evil (any version) and ignore anything remotely related to “responsibility”.
Alas, I cannot, because #horrordontrest, son! I’ve been trying for the past couple of days to exxxpress the severe anxxxiety I felt after the Last Drive In trailer dropped. As I said in my previous post, if you put yourself “out there” in any way, you will always encounter folks that only want to criticize/put you down. I let some online negativity get to me & drag me (temporarily) into my Sad Zone. I fell into the trap of doubting myself hardcore, and wasted precious time convincing myself that I’m incapable of doing anything. I actually did cut myself off from the world for the better part of the weekend, but-t I forced myself to do healthy stuff (meditate/exxxercise) instead of crying & eating m-ass-ive amounts of cake, as I did during the realllly hard to escape Down Times. (I do miss scarfing down delicious cake, though! 😉
I felt ho-peful as I logged back into the real fake world this AM, only to be greeted by the aforementioned bummer news. I was in shock and cried it out for a little bit, but-t then decided that ain’t nuthin’ keeping me from trekking forward. I am currently on a path that makes me immensely happy, and I’ll be danged if my anXXXiety demons (and a negative comment or 2000 😉 are gonna keep me from pursuing the goals I’ve set for myself.
Nexxxt obstacle on the path to Kicking the shit out of social anXXXiety is SXSW. I am so happy I get to travel and support Mr. JB at events like this, but-t so super nervous about it at the same time. I’m scared I won’t know what to say to people…that I’ll do my dorky derp poses when I try to take pics…say stupid things during interviews, etc. But-t as I’m writing this out, I’m realizing that none of that is actually THAT big a deal. If I get shy/say dumb stuff/take derp pics…who sincerely gives a crap? At worst some folks will be able to say “See? I told you she sucked!!”, but-t at best I’ll get to chat with (and hug!! 🙂 some of my fellow Joe Bob Briggs fans, and let Last Drive In supporters know ho-w much I appreciate them. I think that’s worth the risk of a little embarr-ass-ment. 🙂
I ho-pe you’re able to kick the shit out of any trials and/or tribulations you might be facing this week, Super Friends, and find a way to have a lil’ fun whilst you’re at it. I leave you with this bit o’ #MondayMotivation, courtesy of the updated version of Everything is Awesome. (When the first Lego movie came out, I was so #TeamEmmet…Everything WAS awesome, but-t in the 5 years since, I must say that I’ve become a bit more of a realist, for better or worse. Everything’s NOT awesome, and it’s not always going to be, but-t that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t try!! 🙂
Lots and lots of love and hugs to you, ho-mies.
-WyldStyl 2, Electric Boo-galoo